Pink Collar

I don’t get it! Sure the economy might be getting slightly better but that doesn’t change the fact that getting a job after college is going to be hard. Even worse is the fact that I don’t even know what I want to do. It’s not like I’m in a program and after 4 years of work I’ll have a job I’m prepared for. In fact college hasn’t prepared me for any sort of job. I worry about this a lot. Graduation should be one of the happiest moments. It is definitely my biggest achievement thus far. Instead of being excited to get away from the cramming, studying and useless lectures I am dreading the thought of getting out. I will finally be free to become an adult and have my whole life ahead of me. That’s what I should be feeling but instead I realize that after graduation I have nothing waiting for me on the other side. I feel like I’ve been tricked! I was told that I needed to go to college to get a good job and make something of my life. I spend four years wasting away to finally get out and realized I didn’t get much further. Now that I have a bachelors degree I can go to grad school and then I’ll be able to get a job and make something of myself. Am I just an ass with a carrot in front of his face? No I am not a humble donkey keeping his head down and pushing through the day’s work. I envy the donkey because at the end of the day he gets his fill of carrots and water. If I’m lucky ill only get a taste of the carrot and more dept then I can ever hope to pay off. With a crumbling economy and the buildup of dept I'll be lucky to even get my taste. Even with all this stress and anxiety I still have friends that don’t have a care in the world. They still go out and party every night and chase the carrot of success every day. I don’t understand how they can be so nonchalant about their future. Sheep being led to the slaughter house expecting nothing more for their fill. I refuse. I cannot just follow the path I've lead down knowing if there’s anything waiting for me at the end. As much as it saddens me that it is so easy to compare college students to mindless farm animals I still envy every one of them that wakes up every morning without question. Without questioning what they are doing here or where they will end up. If ignorance is such bliss then what does that make knowledge? I was raised on the hopes of movie stars and fame. The hope that after hard work I will get mine and after waking up from that fairy tale I feel nothing but cheated. So what has knowledge really given me?