Pretty Girl Rock ~

I am bummimg around on a beautiful Sunday afternoon. Listening to some music about doing the pretty girl rock. Anyways, this weekend was semi eventful. What I really want to blog about is life, secrets, jealousy, and relationships. Let's start with life. Does anyone really know where life is supposed to take them? Seeing that I am a junior, I am starting to think about my future, what I want to do and who I want to be with for the rest of my life. I know it's still kind of early but I realized that the future is scary place not knowing what will happen or who you will end up with.

I really want to start another relationship but I feel like I forgot how it feels like actually truly like someone after I broke up with my boyfriend. I see guys around and I don't have that instant connection with anyone. I am afraid I won't ever find that connection again. I lust but I don't know how to like anymore. There is this one kid and I guess you can say we are both interrested in each other but I'm not sure if it's real feelings or just bleh. Words really can't describe that certain indifferent feeling.

I am stuck in between two lines: do it or leave it. If I get into another serious relationship with this kid, where will it lead us and how will it end. I know I shouldn't be worrying about this now but that day will come. We should always live in the moment but after my past relationship, I do look into the future because it has so many uncertainties and I don't know if I'm willing to take all these risks and have it end up being a waste of time with only memories to look back on.