Needles

I have an irrational fear of needles. I try to control it, but the thought and sight of needles makes my body completely woozy. I get lightheaded, blood drains from my face, body trembles and sometimes my vision fades to white. I've once woken up in a hospital next to my dad because I passed out while visiting him.
I'm not quite sure where this fear originated from. I'm just deathly afraid of needles. Even getting my ears pierced made me lightheaded (though piecing the holes myself did not bother me). My first experience with an IV in my arm completely freaked me out; I was on laughing gas getting my wisdom teeth removed when I noticed an IV in my arm. I was not aware that I would be getting an IV and the thought of a needle stuck in my arm scared me. I started hallucinating and envisioning the doctor wanting to kill me. On top of that, I avoid doctor's visits out of fear that I'll need s hot of some sort. Usually my mom and a nurse have to hold me down to get a shot done. It's childish, I know, and I'm ashamed of it. I hate the fact I'm terrified by something, and cannot control or overcome.
I booked a tattoo appointment for myself in hopes that extended needle work will help me overcome needles. The tattoo will be going down my left side-rib, right on bone so I know it will hurt. I'm afraid of flinching and messing up the tattoo. I'm afraid of passing out and fainting at the shop. I've been watching youtube videos of people getting rib tattoos just to prepare myself. I do have a previous tattoo, but that was a quick outline of a heart that took a total of 8 seconds, it wasn't enough to gauge the pain.