Since coming to Stony Brook, I feel that I've changed in many ways and in the process have gained many new friends. Though even with the many changes that I have experienced, I am still shy. Even though this has never been a huge issue to me, lately it's been on my mind as I've realized how little I know my friends. For that matter how little attention I receive in return.
It's become rather bothersome to realize that despite being surrounded by people I am still alone. All in all I have never felt as lonely as I feel now. I wish I could talk as freely as other's do.. I can only dream of being able to make friends as easily as other's can or have. It seems lately that all I am is a bottle filled with repressed emotions just waiting to burst out.
I guess I should do something about it. However it's not so easy to just change one's self so easily. Until then, slowly over time, I'll change myself. I'll no longer feel sorry for myself.
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