The wrong intentions?

When you meet people for the first time, you sometimes sense a vibe from that person. Sometimes it is a good and you’ll be friends with them for a long time while the other is can be true too and you want to stay away from them as much as possible. I remember I reluctantly became friends with girl named Mimi because we were put into groups by our professor back in sophomore year. She’s a nice person but I already sense that I wouldn’t like her. We literally shared 4 out of 5 classes together so I saw practically all the time. It got to the point that she would follow me to everywhere I went from getting food, meeting up with my friends, to my club meetings. And somehow I ended up being a matchmaker when I didn’t really intend on doing. It grew to annoyance and dislike that I can’t seem to get away from her and have my own personal space.

I did something that I don’t know if I still regret to this day and that is ignore her, openly. This was the first time I did something like that and I never even consulate her on my personal issues that I had with her. I started to sit away from her during class, leaving early when I see her come into our club meetings, and don’t talk, have physical contact (like hug) or eye contact what-so-ever when we had our gatherings. I kept this a secret from everyone and just chose to take this path on my own. I saw a bit of hurt and confusion as to why I’m suddenly acting like that but she never bothered to ask me and chose to accept it and now don’t bother talking or making any physical contact with me either. It just became natural to not speak to each other when we get together at our yearly reunions.

But right now I feel a little bit bad that I did something like that after revealing the truth to a few people and hearing from them that Mimi didn’t know why I suddenly changed my attitude towards her. Would it be too late to save myself when I’ve dug myself so deep already? How would she react if I decide to tell that after knowing each other for 3 years, why I chose to ignore her? I tried a little bit to see if I could change my attitude towards her but it is hard when it has already become a habit. Even now I still choose to look away from her or try to sit as far away as possible without having to look at the wall behind her. Maybe it is better to leave it alone since the damage is already done.