Relationship

So what Im about to write is a little deep right now for me and fresh in my mind because it just recently happened to me. My girlfriend and I, or should I say ex now...have split. It is a weird feeling being with someone for years everyday in the year constantly talking to them and seeing them finally vanish. It leaves me a weird feeling in the pit of my gut, but I also see some kind of freedom. I am the one that did the dirty deed and broke up but I needed to. Things were not looking the way I wanted it to be and I felt like I was losing a part of myself. I needed to be a bit selfish and break it off with her for the sake of me. I needed some freedom from her dependent needs.

It is tough trying to make a "nice break up" which is an oxymoron. I mean I did make it clear, understandable and reasonable for her to understand why. I needed some time in my life and to see what I plan on doing with my future. Of course when you say that to the person that you loved for years it translate to, "I hate you and I want to be away from you".

Relationships are hard as it is because you are caring for two people. Yourself and your significant other, but it seems to be more of the other than you. I realize I am young and I need to do some dumb things, take some risks, and see what is out their in life before I settle down for anything serious. Its a rough decision but I feel like it had to be done for the sake of me.