I tend to fail at life a lot. There are two certainties to me. If you are my friend, then you are my family and I am always there for you. And second; I am never going to amount to much.
Don't get me wrong I have a lot of accomplishments. I have quite a few more than most. I have more athletic and community service honors than most people. I am known throughout my town for my involvement in its betterment. I am good sister and a daughter to be proud of.
But I also have a lot of demons, and I don't deserve to be happy, so most times I don't expect to be. I try to be the best person I can be and refuse anything from anyone. I give it all to those that deserve. You're probably asking, what makes her so undeserving? My answer is my past and my internal struggle.
I do not deserve anything good and will shoulder everything bad, it is my way of pay back against myself. It is actually therapeutic. This is why I say I will never amount to much, because that would be unfair.
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