sleep? what's that

So if you saw my V-log or vlog Whatever it's called... I have been stuck in these really messed up sleep cycles. 24+ hours awake and 4-5 asleep every day. since last wednesday. i know it's terrible but it's interesting the world is moving so quickly around me. After a certain amount of time awake reality starts to feel like a dream but when I go to sleep i am not happy so i wake up and stay up for another 24+ hours. it's probabally gonna kill me in the end but... it's kinda worth it to be awake to see the sunrise and set then rise again is a really calming. watching over roth pond while no one is around is truly a treat. no skateboarders no screaming drunk bitches no nothing. Just me the occational duck swimming by and the pond. slowly my body starts to shut down... i start seeing things and feeling things that arn't there it's truly surreal. it's like a virtual world where everything is beautiful and there is no ugly in the world my worst enemy could be my bestfriend. i honsetly do not know what else to write. my fingers are like little snakes dancing across the keyboard. they feel so weird. this dreaming while still awake thing is too crazy